Fear?

"The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom". These days a reality that I may have been unaware of has become evident. I am not in control and nothing is stable, except GOD. I fear him, I am reminded of the line in the Lion, Witch and Wardrobe. Lucy was watching Aslan walk away and it was said, "He's not safe, but he is good."

This life is not safe in some ways, but NOTHING can separate us from God. Spiritually we are safe, but physically we all have a burden to bare, a thorn so to speak. These weaknesses keep us on our knees.

I looked into the tear flooded eyes of my beautiful daughter as she expressed the pain of struggle. I so wanted to fix it for her, I wanted to erase the pain, I wanted to make it all better. But I can't, I don't obtained the power to do so. God does, but I told her how Paul struggled and it kept him dependent on God. If we felt we could do it all on our own, would be cling to him? I venture to think, I would be far from him, sad to say. I struggle, we all struggle, thank God we struggle. Keep me close Lord.

I welcome apprehensively, the "fear" I sense. Not fear like I have known before but a reverence a reality that HE CAN DO ANYTHING, he holds me. I am just a speck, my life a vapor. He is to be feared and revered. I never understood and I am sure that I still do not understand fully, "working out my salvation in fear and trembling". Today I walk forward, blind to my future or that of those around me, but confident that if I hold on to him and be obedient, my ultimate destiny is secure. "NOTHING can separate us from the Love of God."

I will try to reference all the scriptures that this is based on. I praise God that my parents from a young age and myself as a young adult memorized many scriptures and they are just a part of my thinking, however my lack of attention to detail leaves me blank as to where they are located in the WORD. OPPS.. another struggle.