I don't know what lies ahead, but what I do know...

I do know that God is faithful
I do know that he will not give me more than I can bare
I do know that we are more than conquerors through Christ
I do know that he works all things for our good
I do know that he has a plan for me
I do know that the trying of my faith works perseverance
I do know that his yoke is easy and his burden is light
I do know that I can do all things through Christ that strengths me

This has been a trying week. Last weekend I was frustrated with Z because he seemed to be going backward with walking again. I thought he was making up excuses, till I looked at his leg before school one morning and realized something didn't seem right with his right (good) leg. I talked to the PT, I talked to the Dr. all seemed to think he had just over done it or something. The next day I called the Dr. again. He seemed to be shaking a lot and his knee didn't look right. The Dr. agreed to look at it and Marc took him in on Friday to get an Xray. Z has cancer again. Dr. said that in his twenty-some years of practice he had never seen this kind of cancer go to another bone. Marc came home and told Xavier and I and then I proceeded to go get Jayden and tell her. How could this happen? Why him? He has been through so much already....I DON'T KNOW WHY, but I DO KNOW....God does. I DO KNOW THAT HE WILL BE GLORIFIED. I DO KNOW it will not be easy.
So, far the kids seem to be handling things well, including Z. He is trying to look on the bright side of things. He was telling our neighbor about what was happening and he broke out in song, "He'll give you Hope for tomorrow, Joy for your sorrow, strength for anything you go through" I helped him finish, "I know the plans I have for you". We stood not really knowing how to respond. I began to think...."This kid no matter what happens is bringing glory to God and I want him to be able to share it with others." So, I asked him to blog with me as we go through this JOURNEY of uncertainty. The first thing he told me when he came home from the clinic after discovering the cancer was back was, "I feel depressed, the cancer is back again. But think of the bright side, I can touch more peoples lives now."

I DO KNOW THAT GOD WILL WALK WITH US.